Tyler Durden: I see all this potential, and I see it squandered. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables – slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need. We’re the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our great war is a spiritual war… Our great depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars, but we won’t. We’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed off.
Nirvana literally means “cool” or “to extinguish” I looked it up, it is the state of ultimate freedom, freedom from sorrow but also freedom from happiness. To escape from the woven web. Call me a weirdo but I find this all quite fasinating. I think if you were to ask the average person what they would wish for if they had a magic génie in a lamp ( other than world peace, which in my opinion is vertually impossible) they would reply ‘to be happy’
. The illusive happiness pill I’ve been seeking, I have begun to realise is a fallacy that doesn’t actually truly exist, how can anyone be happy all the time? That would be insane. So in my thinking about happiness and what it means to me I have had deep thoughts … deep thoughts on the actual beleiving of WHAT will make me happy, & the seeking of What will make me happy …. you still with me?
Wants verses needs – let me give an example, I’m using me as an example because I figure I cannot be so strange that others don’t do the things that I do ,,, right? So for example, I like to buy things, I can be seduced by advertising and the things I see that I desire, what catches my eye, be it online or out in the real world. Instagram is a bugger cause it’s like dangling the carrot of temptation, crafty temptation. I’ll Part with the dosh I worked hard for, cause I earned this right, this pleasure, this thing I’m purchasing to make me happy, I earnt that happiness through hard work. I get my purchase home and sure it makes me happy, for an hour or two, maybe even a day or two, then I start seeking that happiness feeling again, well I’ve worked hard, I’ve earned it, I deserve that happiness, right? But I don’t need all these things …
There is another kind of happiness, for example, (using me as an example again….. you dear reader, may have a different happiness thingy,) when old people smile at you when you pass them, that makes me so happy, pottering in my garden, sewing, hearing the birds sing, the first signs of Spring, bluebell woods ..etc … you getting me? none of these things can be bought, they are quite unexpected and they are not labelled ‘happiness’ … forced happiness is the sort that you have to buy, or the one you want, you desire to have, it can be cloaked in disguise, like a wolf in sheeps clothing.. come get me, own me, I’ll make you happy…eg … if I have that watch I’ll be happy, if I have this I’ll be happy, if I have that, I’ll be happy, if only I could achieve such and such, I’ll be happy ……
Maybe I reached my own personal Nirvana, on a very me level, as I realised happiness cannot be owned, happiness Is it’s own Master
A Wil – ‘o – the Wisp
you cannot seek it
you cannot buy it
you do not find it
But if you breath and take a step back
open your eyes and stop wanting
Happiness sometimes finds you .
to be continued xx